Deja Vu

Experienced deja vu today. I was asking Meeling about her appointment yesterday. Then I realised how it all seemed so familiar... I have vague memories of being at the same place, asking her the same question, with her giving the exact same reply. Even my follow-up question was the same, and from there, I was able to know what her reply would be, before I even finished asking my question. She answered in the same way she did in my 'memory'. It just seemed so unbelievable... There was one big difference between what happened today, and what was in my mind though - Ching Song was not in my mental scene.

This is not the first time I experienced deja vu. Is it really just a coincidence, or...?

Anyway, coincidence or not, that was not the chief preoccupation of the day. That honour would have to go to the ache in my buccal cavity. The problematic tooth has also left me with a slight swelling of my left jaw.

I'm SO looking forward to my dental visit tomorrow.

P.S.I doubt I have ever been more eager to see the dentist.

Groans!!!

My body's still aching after my IPPT exertions on Wednesday. It must be due to my lack of exercise and insufficient cooling-down exercises after the test. Oh, by the way, I failed (as I expected). Only managed 5 pull-ups instead of the 6 required to pass. Not that it matters since I have plans to retake even if I had passed as I want to get a silver.

Anyway, I have a new ache - this one caused by my new wisdom tooth...

There's a numbing pain that is downright distracting and getting unbearable by the minute. Wonder what time the dental clinic opens.

Will I be able to sleep tonight?

Detached...

School's bustling with excitement, with the CCA bazaar, students-organised games and other activities, food fair, etc. Indeed, SIM seems more like a fair this week, replete with life and energy. Everyone seemed so happy...

I feel so out of place. All this gaiety surrounding me only serves to intensify my uncertainties and confusion. What is the right balance?



Seeking...

Answers...

Seeking...

Assurance...



Sigh... Assurance... How ironic...

What should I do tomorrow?

Teachers' Day

Today, we had our last session of Read-With-Me for this term. Jia Yu was his usual wretched self...but a tad more destructive. Twice he grabbed and crushed Aaron's song sheet. Thankfully, Aaron was more bemused than upset.

I worked with Wei Ming for the first time today. His situation was worse than I expected. He could hardly speak(or perhaps he was just afraid/reluctant to speak?), and his ability to comprehend instructions and questions was barely enough for him to learn from the session. Besides that, he was largely anti-social, refusing to share his puzzles with others... If only I had more knowledge for helping such underpriviledged children.

Joven has been a good student generally, interactive and easy to teach. I'm sure he would have a smooth transition to Primary 1. I'll definitely miss him, the way I'm missing Rong Zhuo and Chao Yuan. I'm sure they are coping well.

The Teachers' Day present this year is rather useless to me, and is now lying in the cupboard next to last year's Teachers' Day gift. I like the accompanying Delifrance peach tart though...

Looking forward to the trip to the fire station...




Missing: All those teachers who have made an impact in my life.
Sorely missing: Mrs Jennifer Lee and Ye lao shi (aka Mrs Tan Mui Luan).

POSB Community Service Day

I did not sign up for this year's Army Half Marathon.
I thought I would be able to sleep in as a result.
Until...

I signed up for a morning with the animals at the Singapore Zoo.

It was a trip to the zoo for students from Student Care Services (SCS), organised by title sponser, POSB. I got the chance to join as a volunteer at the Hougang branch of SCS.

It was tough waking up at 6+ in the morning so that I could reach Hougang SCS by 7. I was late; but then again, only Xin Hui was on time... Haha...

It was tough trying to organise a roomful of screaming kids into the four groups they were pre-allocated for attendance-taking and distribution of group identification stickers and event T-shirts. We only managed to depart at 08:15am after settling the above tasks and other miscellaneous stuff such as getting the kids to change into the T-shirts, etc... Our speed was pretty OK until you consider that we had planned to leave at 07:30am. Some kids started complaining as a result.

The trip was pretty uneventful, in a negative way. The highlight was probably the magic show by 'Danny the Magic Prince'. We did not see a lot of animals as the planned route was pretty short.

Overall, there were a few things that stood out(for me):
1. There was this wolf which kept pacing up and down in its relatively small enclosure and it seemed to be in distraught.
2. There were so many free goodies in the TWO goodies bags given. Too much of a good thing can be bad. We ended up with many dimunitive kids carrying bags which even I think is heavy.
3. I thought there was too much POSB propaganda going on during the event.
4. The emcee keeps speaking in English that is too good for the children to understand. I'm not sure some of the children know what a 'washroom' is... And since the event was organised for the kids, it makes sense to speak at a level that is comfortable to them, not the adult volunteers.

Oh dear... I'm really tired... I was typing a load of gibberish which I've deleted, of course...

Good Night!

Two weeks of blur-ness

There's been so much going on in the past two weeks... I can hardly catch my breath. As such, all entires from today onwards till at least the end of this month will be kept brief, while I try to catch my breath. And some much-needed rest.

The lack of rest is probably the main reason for the numerous silly mistakes I've been making lately, and it's been such a hassle trying to correct the errors. I really do not have much spare time left for such ineffective use of time. Then again, I'm blogging now, and Peter will probably categorise this under his list of time-wasting activities... Haha...

Recent results have been pretty encouraging, though disappointments are still common. It's downright frustrating when people portray untrue interest, raising your hopes to the sky, only for you to fall flat on your face, wondering why you have been such a fool, when you realise the deceit. Or how about those people who proclaim interest, yet seem to treat their phones as fashionable accessories and nothing more since their phones seemed to be off 23hrs and 58mins everyday. Then there are those whom I maintain the hope of hearing their wonderful voices because their phones seem to be on 24hrs a day. The only problem with such species is that half the time, the line is engaged; the rest of the time, no one answers the phone.

I need just one lucky minute everyday to more than double my appointment count for next week.

I wonder if that nice lady I met at Woodlands last week is still awake. I've never tried calling at 1:36am...

Personality test - http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Taken from Cher's blog...

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.