Marriage

Hmmm... Just found out ZH is married. While still in uni. And he's only 23. Wow...

It must be cool to introduce your wife to your friends in school.

Makes me wonder how old I'll be when I get married. If I get married. I've been single all my life and I've never really felt uncomfortable about it. There have been times when I've been filled with envy looking at loving couples, but I never really felt the urge to find a girlfriend. I prefer to have things happen naturally, and besides, I'm not financially ready for such commitments.

But sometimes I do wonder whether I've been true to myself. Perhaps my financial status is just an excuse. Perhaps I'm just too indecisive. Or too shy. Or a commitment-phobe.

I don't know. Maybe it's because I'm just so unsure of myself now, what I really want to do, that I avoid pondering things that would add to my confusion.

Perhaps, perhaps...

Perhaps one day I would be there. I could volunteer at the old folks' home one day, play chess the other, and crap along with friends, old and new, the other days. I would have the ideal wife, a companion who would share all my joys, everyday. I've applied for a ticket to Utopia, but when would I have the wealth to travel there? Perhaps I should wake up first and think about it another day...

A great week ahead?

A weekend of welcomed rest, free from work.
Frustrations from knowing that the end of the week is here, that I have once again performed below expectations.
Apprehension at having to present lacklustre results and having to hear of impressive performances by others.
Excitement at the prospect of going to an exciting (that's what they all say) event, the same dreaded event mentioned above.
A better week ahead?

I WANT MY REIMBURSEMENT !!!

Perhaps the goal-setting session would provide the spark I need.

To Batam. To success.

Is my degree recognised?

Just read the latest entry on Wei Ren's blog(OK... So it has been there for a few days already...). I agree with most of his points regarding my UOL degree, but I believe a 2nd upper or 1st class honours degree from the UOL-external programme is worth more than he suggested. From what I've heard, a 2nd upper or 1st class degree gives a reasonable chance of getting into an MNC against competition from NUS, NTU and SMU graduates with relevant degrees, while the civil service tends to prefer graduates from the three local universities. Well, it's all talk from the grapevine, and I can only hope my sources are reliable. Haha... In any case, it's not that relevant in my current job, and if I stay at it (hopefully), I won't have to worry about the recognition given to my degree.

Of course that does not mean I can slack and be satisfied with a 3rd class or 2nd lower. In fact, I'm looking forward to the new term.

Hopefully by that time, I would have decided whether to disrupt from my NS liabilities. What a bother!

Relieved --> Stressed

Finally closed my first case yesterday. Not ecstatic though; just relieved that I finally cleared the first hurdle, especially since I would not have succeeded without Alfred's help.

I'm tired. Looking forward to a relaxing session at Batam. Hope it's not too stressful...

I think I've stepped on someone toes. Did I misinterprete her views, or did she misunderstand me? Or maybe it's just her not being in the mood to entertain others, as she suggested? She told me not to worry when I asked if she was offended, but after reading her blog entry, I'm not so sure. Perhaps she is not offended, but just VERY annoyed? Or maybe she's referring to someone else?

I really should stop second-guessing others, before people get so frustrated that they give up trying to explain how they feel and any misunderstanding deepens into a chasm...

Hiaz... Now I don't dare to talk to her in case she's really referring to me. In which case I would be bugging her again. Perhaps I can try to clear my doubts after the trip...

Why am I so affected by how people feel about me? Arghhhh!!! :-(

Small Singapore, large Chinese population

Met many friends over the past few days, hoping to meet more. There are some people I really hope to meet, especially Bert, who is forever cocooned in his world of music.

It shouldn't be too difficult, since Singapore is so small. To think that the owner of a used-to-be-irritating maltese is now my colleague. And I didn't even recognise him at first. Wonder what's next. Perhaps one day I will realise that my neighbour is my manager's relative, or my dad's colleague is my friend's mum. Haha...

One final observation: there are A LOT of Chinese (as in Chinese nationals, aka China people - hope this doesn't sound offensive) in Singapore. Although official statistics puts the figure at a few hundred thousands(i think it's less than 500k), it seems like a million to me. Maybe one day there will be more Chinese from China than Singapore, in our homeland. Haha...

My prediction: In year 2100, there will be 5 official races in Singapore - Chinese, Malay, Indian, Eurasian and Chinese PR. Haha...

Whatever the case, peace and harmony is the most important. We shall remain as one people, one nation, one Singapore!!! (perhaps I'll get a National Day award for this show of patriotism)

When can I rest? But I've only just started...

I'm so tired...

After a week of intensive training and some less stressful mental exertions, I'm finally ready to start work. Sort of. Still got a lot to learn actually. And a lot of sleep debt to 'clear'.

In short, I'm now a somnambulistic entity with an engorged brain, aching back and numb legs.

Hope AMK will yield better returns. May I be blessed with helpful souls who will in turn get to benefit from my service. I believe the liars at Bukit Batok today are an anomaly (I hope).

~Alas! The world is ridden with deceit. Pragmatism rules over conscience! I shall attempt to resist the devastating plague. No filling of resume with blatant lies or avoiding people doing survey with chants of " I'm busy ", only to be seen loitering in the area for the subsequent hour.~